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Heyy.

I haven't updated in a while

Well everyone is at the effing football game but me. And that sucks. Yeah. I have nothing to do this weekend and stuff. So it sucks. And to top it all off, I just heard that at the game my boyfriend kissed some chick. Yeah. This sucks. I fucking have to deal with FOR THE THIRD TIME a boyfriend cheating on me. Now I just want to put it out there that it's not necessarily true. I mean come'on though. My friends never lie to me. They know how happy I am with him and they're just gonna lie to me? I doubt it. It was like a few people that called me too. Not just like one.

I know all of you are thinking "typical highschool drama" but these exceeds the limit of highschool drama. It's called REALITY. And I'm, to be quite frank, not ready for it yet. I don't normally fall head over heals for someone so fast but I just couldn't help it. He hit me like a big yellow bus. And he's suicidal and so if I break up with him he's gonna go like cut himself, and I know he will. As much as he doesn't want to admit it, it's true.

I can't help but to think that honestly it's my fault he went and kissed some chick. Because, maybe he doesn't think I'm good enough. Well I'm fucking left here with no answer, what am I supposed to think? I can't do anything about this. I can't help it! I have no answers to the 10 million questions running through my wicked ass weird mind. And I feel like no one can understand unless they're actually in my head. This sounds like all that teenage agnst. But It's not.

Well on another note...
My math teacher e-mailed my mom! -_- But come to find out!!! She was telling my mom I was doing good in math. So theres a yay! lol. Tehehehe. Yup lol

So my 3 day weekend is gonna suck. I can't go no where, I can't do anything. And I'm not even grounded. My mom just doesn't want to take us anywhere. Which sucks. Because I hardly ever go anywhere on the weekends. Since I've come back from my dads house I...Went to the movies...Um...Uh...I think that might be it. Oh no Chris came over ((the boyfriend)) but his grandparents dropped him off and picked him up. So yeah. I haven't done anything!

But my brother on the other hand always has Barbara ((his girlfriend)) over and my mom picks her up and drops her off. -_- Not cool. They really act like I'm non existant sometimes. Well. I can't say it's all true because they do talk to me when I come out my room. lol. But yeah.

Well I was crying earlier when I started this but now I'm not. Thank goodness. I guess getting this all off my chest its okay....I hope...

Well now that you've gotten in my head yeah it's cool now. lol

Wellllll

ily

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okay wow todayy

wasss ummm a bitchhh

I got really mad at Chris and Alainna. They were acting like dumbasses and it pissed me off

Kay.

So everyone knows I used to cut and what not. Well I recently started to do that again. I'm PATHETIC. Kay? right. And Chris was idkk i just love him look::

XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: ILUSOOMUCHCHRISTINMARIE!
PeasPlayInTrafik: iloveyoutoo
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: =]
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: im sorry
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: i was acting really immautre
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: today at lunch
PeasPlayInTrafik: It's okay
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: you looked sad
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: or mad
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: or sumthin
PeasPlayInTrafik: I was aggrivated
PeasPlayInTrafik: My day didn't go as well as I was expecting it to
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: whyy?
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: (besides lunch)
PeasPlayInTrafik: I dunno.
PeasPlayInTrafik: I just felt really outta place
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: oh...
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: i wish you wouldve told me
PeasPlayInTrafik: I thought it was pretty obvious. The only time I was 'happy' of some sort, was during the fire drill because I told Holly I was grr and she kept tryin to make me smile. But I wasn't all Woo like I normally am.
PeasPlayInTrafik: I just thought it was obvious. I didn't think I had to say anything.
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: shakes head*with you,you have ur moments
PeasPlayInTrafik: what?
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: liek you'll look sad and you'll be happy
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: or vice virsa
PeasPlayInTrafik: haha not really I can act well
PeasPlayInTrafik: I can be sad act happy and still be sad
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: ah
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: meh 2
PeasPlayInTrafik: Or I can be happy look sad but really be happy
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: yah
PeasPlayInTrafik: yeah, Well today just was an off day
PeasPlayInTrafik: maybe I was just over reacting
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: shakes head*i can understand
PeasPlayInTrafik: mhmm
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: *hugz her and doesnt let go*
PeasPlayInTrafik: *hugs*
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: smilez*iloveyou
PeasPlayInTrafik: i love you too
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: =\
PeasPlayInTrafik: what
PeasPlayInTrafik: ?
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: nothing
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: just thinking
PeasPlayInTrafik: about...?
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: you
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: life
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: etc
PeasPlayInTrafik: oh...kay
PeasPlayInTrafik: brb
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: omg

Auto response from PeasPlayInTrafik: omgosh
what did i do now
:'(
haven't i been through enough?!

just don't even try anymore

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XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: what happened?
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: CHRISTIN MARIE

Auto response from PeasPlayInTrafik: I 'm gonna regret doing thiss

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XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: REMEMBER WHAT I SAID

Auto response from PeasPlayInTrafik: I'm gonna regret doing thiss

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Dooode if you call me expect to get bitched out unless your the boyfriend the best friend or the effin wife got it!?

PeasPlayInTrafik: what?
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: ugh..
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: what it sounds liek
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: doesnt sound too gud
PeasPlayInTrafik: well no shit...
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: and if it is what i think it is
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: =[
PeasPlayInTrafik: yes its what you think it is
PeasPlayInTrafik: i can't frikken help it
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: christin, yes you can
PeasPlayInTrafik: No I really can
PeasPlayInTrafik: t
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: why not

Auto response from PeasPlayInTrafik: I'm gonna regret doing thiss

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Dooode if you call me expect to get bitched out unless your the boyfriend the best friend or the effin wife got it!?

XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: what will it solve?
PeasPlayInTrafik: idk
PeasPlayInTrafik: i don't care
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: you should
PeasPlayInTrafik: why?
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: wait,. why are you doing this anywayz?>
PeasPlayInTrafik: Alot of reasons
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: like?
PeasPlayInTrafik: just stuff
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: like?
PeasPlayInTrafik: omg
PeasPlayInTrafik: just stuff
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: i cant help if i dont know
PeasPlayInTrafik: Chris I don't need fucking help kay I just need to be left alone!
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: *nodz*fine
PeasPlayInTrafik: im sorry =(
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx is away at 3:59:40 AM.
PeasPlayInTrafik: chriss I'm not gonna

Auto response from XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: i tryed to help her, i know whats shes guns do, and i told her, if she does it i can too, soo ill be somewhere with mah Z

PeasPlayInTrafik: i'm really sorry ='(
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx returned at 4:01:07 AM.
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: promise?
PeasPlayInTrafik: yes i promise
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: *hugz her*i try and help, cuz i love and care deeply about you
PeasPlayInTrafik: I know
PeasPlayInTrafik: I'm sorry
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: it's okay
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: i know what it's liek
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: ive been in that spot too
PeasPlayInTrafik: :-\
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: nodz*yah i have
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: b4 i met n somewhat after
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: u
PeasPlayInTrafik: That wasn't a 'idontbelieveyou' smiley thatwas a 'iwouldneverwantyoutobeinmyposition' confused face
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: oh
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: well yah i have
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: *hugz*i do everything i do beacuse i care
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: you and cj are the main reasons i live another day
PeasPlayInTrafik: chrisss *hugs*
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: *hugz*i just thought u needed to know that
PeasPlayInTrafik:
PeasPlayInTrafik: iloveyou
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: iloveyoualot
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx:
PeasPlayInTrafik:
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: i know what imma do next time u say u dont want mah help
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: 2 things
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: send u a quick mesg
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: then go away
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: (mesg)
PeasPlayInTrafik: why?
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: you'll see
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: next time it happens
PeasPlayInTrafik: kayy?
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: I Will Never Let You Fall,
I'll Stand Up With You Forever
PeasPlayInTrafik:
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: I'll Be There For You Through It all
Even If Saving You Sends Me To Heaven
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: I Will Never Let You Fall,
I'll Stand Up With You Forever
I'll Be There For You Through It all
Even If Saving You Sends Me To Heaven
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: aha
PeasPlayInTrafik: lol
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: lol
PeasPlayInTrafik: <3
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: imma send that
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: <3
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: then put this away mesg up
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx is away at 4:14:34 AM.
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx returned at 4:14:46 AM.
PeasPlayInTrafik: o0o
XfOrGeTmEhAtEmEx: nodz*yah

I freakin love him more than anything in this world ever. He's just the bestt. GAHH. lol =)

Currently Listening Clear Hearts Grey Flowers By Jack Off Jill see related

High school...

Wow

Didn't get called freashmeat. Which was good.

I got in a few verbal arguments

I have 1st lunch on A day which is cool cause I have lunch with like ALOT of my friends. And yeah

I get to do it all over tomorrow!

Oh and Tashaa

The beautiful boy, Richard, have you spoken to him? He looks like the kind of person to dress a certain way but not hang out with people that dress that way. I seen him at orientation. He was a hottayy lol

=)

Ilutasha

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Kay soo...Me and John well...We pretty much broke up.

I'm not such a happy camper about it. But I just had to.

Not gonna go into why...I just did...

Tomorrow I'm goin see Talladega Nights:The Ballad Of Ricky Bobby =)

Excitementt

Then tomorrow

Freshman orientation YIKES

lol

Then school shopping

My moms like WTF do I buyy?! I'm like umm wellllll...Theres clothes, shoes, accessories, umm a school bag, all the accencial things =P She was like no shit so then I "realized" she meant stufff. I was like notebooks pens pencils blah blah blahh

But yeah now I'm wondering

What does she have to buy?!

Inform me bitches